Time to reflect

Exams are finally over, it is less than a week until Christmas, and the last week has allowed me to reflect on what I’ve done this year and what I can take from my experiences.

This year has been one of the biggest roller coasters of my life so far.

It would be easy to look back and focus on all the rubbish that happened in 2016; I spent three months working a job abroad that I didn’t enjoy in the slightest; I lost a very close family member who was like a second mum to me, to an illness that destroyed her from the inside out and I became depressed and bulimic as I tried (and failed) to process everything that was happening that was out with my control. For a time, I let these facts control what I was doing in my life. I shrank into myself, almost destroying a friendship with someone who I loved dearly, and it wasn’t until very recently I was able to take a step back and reflect on how lucky I actually am.

I went on holiday with my best friends; booked a spontaneous trip to Paris with other close friends of mine and surprised one of them with a day trip to Disneyland; my dad became a father again, therefore I became a big sister for the third time; and I recently became friends with someone who has been such an inspiration to me, and has gotten me crazy into yoga and tried to show me how to embrace my body, and I’ve finally gotten the help I need to begin the road to recovery. On top of this, I made some major life plans for next year (more to come on that in future posts) and last week, my friends and I did present swap for Christmas and I just feel so at peace with everything.

I have the most amazing people in my life. My two best friends know everything I am going through and they are genuinely the most supportive, understanding people a girl could ask to have in her life. They don’t push me to tell them anything I don’t want to tell them, and they always make me feel loved and appreciated.

All in all, 2016 has been an awful year in so many ways, but, looking back, cheesy as it may sound, anything bad that has happened is just one more thing to help shape me as a person and I have been able to make better ‘grown up’ choices- for example, I now know who appreciated me and wants to spend time with me without any ulterior motive, and I have come to appreciate my family  whole lot more. 2017 is going to bring so many things for me to look forward to and grow from, so that’s what I’ll be toasting my process to this Christmas!

A merry, merry Christmas to everyone, and may 2017 be amazing!

C x

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