Don’t know about all of you, but I would, just for one year, be content and at peace with myself.
The past year has been hard. Obviously, if you’ve been reading my posts, you will know 2017 brought it’s fair share of surprises.
I met the absolute love of my life; I graduated university; I moved country; and I cut out the most negative people I know from my life- freeing myself from a whole array of anxieties that plagued me from day to day.
However, 2017 also saw me getting even more ill than the year before; Australia didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to; and it’s been a whole lot of torment. Just one thing after another has happened, and, even with all the beautiful things that have happened, like with Mr OneBigStressball coming to Australia and seeing me, and all the other wonderful things that have happened, it’s been extremely difficult allowing myself to truly feel happy and at ease because I’m constantly worried it’ll be taken away from me.
I don’t feel sorry for myself, and I don’t want pity from anyone else, it just gets frustrating when you’re trying your best at something (life) and it keeps throwing s*** back in your face.
So, I am determined to have a few simple goals this year to help me create my own happiness, and not let things get me down so easily.
I know, I know, you see the same thing over and over again at the beginning of every year. People fool themselves constantly that they’ll make massive changes and their whole lives will change for the better-but honestly, you don’t need dramatic changes to live a good life.
Yeah, quitting smoking is good for you (if you’re reading this and you smoke, seriously, I’m not even ashamed to preach to you. It’s not healthy. Stop. Us asthmatics don’t smoke and can’t have full use of our lungs, so please don’t waste yours.); starting a whole new fitness lifestyle is an amazing goal to have and achieve. And any other major shifts in your habits and daily routines may ultimately be best for you.
But, real happiness starts with the small things. My big-vision goal would be to be completely recovered and stop being overwhelmed with fear and anxiety every time I leave the house; or to stick up for myself in all the situations that seem appropriate; or even to finally become a private PT with my own studio, doing something that I love, day in, day out.
However, if I go into the New Year thinking only about these massive goals, I’m setting myself up for a disappointing year. These things don’t happen overnight. I can’t wake up tomorrow and suddenly never be anxious again. Who would I even be kidding if I said I thought that could happen?
No. Long term goals are reached with short term achievements, and that is how I intend to go about my year.
Firstly, my fitness goals.
- I primarily want to get back into my running groove (the groove I was in before it became obsessive and all about how I could burn off every single calorie I consumed).
- Deadlift 120kg (roughly twice my own bodyweight)
- Squat one full set of 6 at 70kg
- Do one full set of assisted pull ups. (I can’t even do one full one of these yet so let’s see how we go there.)
Then more specifically, my running goals:
- One half marathon (signed up for one in May)
- Build up to a 2019 marathon.
- 2 or more 5k and 10k races.
- Do a 1 month running challenge.
- Consistently run 3+ times a week.
And, most importantly, my mental health goals that will play a huge part in my day-to-day happiness and mental wellbeing.
- Complete a 30 day purge-free streak.
- Don’t allow negative people to be or remain a part of my life.
- Be more open and honest, no matter how hard it is to do.
And that’s everything I have so far!
It seems like quite a long list, but I took the time and the effort to sit down and make sure they were goals that were going to be challenging for me but not completely unattainable.
Because who wants to be set up for failure?
I’ve written these on here to hold myself accountable, and to make sure I give it my all and don’t muck around making excuses as to why I can’t do them. This is the time for me to focus on myself. Now is the time to be the best version of me as possible.
Has anyone else got some New Years resolutions and goals they’re working towards?